a journey of a starless night

i had a dream last night
quite a nice one i think

it featured me at the mall
i was at the perfume counter trying all sorts of perfumes available
i was hooked up with SJP's perfume collection and bought one for myself
in real life, i never saw any SJP's collection over the perfume counter
aish...

when i woke up, i actually looked for the 'perfume' i bought
silly me :P

ada sesiapa nak belikan perfume x?
dapat yang bodyshop punya pun jadi la
:D

aku naik ambulance amek vic of accident
aku seronok
tapi vic itu sangat ganas meronta
dia x sedarkan diri
aku terpaksa pegang kaki tangan dia dengan kuat sebelum dia bukak cervical collar
owh..dia sangat ganas
kudrat aku x cukup untuk pegang dia
kenapa rescuer lain xnak tolong aku pegang dia eh?
diorang kan lelaki
hhmmm......

sekarang bahu dan belakang aku sakit
tampal koyok best ni
yoko yoko pun ada
:P

i presented my topic of research this morning
alhamdulillah, everything went well
i wasn't expecting good comment from the judges but yeah, i think i deserved it
according to the judges, my presentation was nicely done with interesting topic and interesting result
they didn't ask any question to me which amazed me
and they said, if no question was asked, it meant the presentation was clear and understandable
alhamdulillah once again

during the closing ceremony, they announced the winners for each category
guess what?
i was the first runner up for clinical study category :)
only me and the winner weren't asked any question by the judges
that impressive huh?
hehe

and the winners are going to represent our school at national level in january which will be held in UM

after all the hard work and stress and inadequate sleep and stuff,
i managed to get something as reward
thank you to all~
rombongan beramai-ramai ke UM

tomorrow, i will be presenting my research for 7th student scientific conference
i am not sure whether i have prepared for it
i feel uneasy and try to block it away
it has been there in my mind for the past few weeks

i played around a lot
i messed things up
i tend to rush things at the very last minute
i just don't know...

had exam this afternoon
i didn't read before the exam
once again, i messed up

i just hope that i can finish my presentation as planned without so many questions from the floor
amin...

ada kelas pagi ini
x menarik sungguh. huh! tapi xpela sebab sekarang sedang buat A&E posting
A&E itu menarik ;-)

yang x bestnya, lepas ni akan masuk klinik tiap2 hari sampailah final exam
(insyaAllah boleh amek final exam :P)

mmm...
i am so gonna miss doing medical posting
less stress, less mess, less burden
aish...
nobody understands this

sebenarnya, makin hari makin rasa jauh
...........................

oh! went to post mortem meeting in UM and we got great news
that is to be kept among us only *wink*
then, headed straight to penang to celebrate my GF birthday
pictures later
have to go on call
tata~

i had adrenaline rush this one whole day
dapat tengok live emergency cases kat emergency department
polytrauma, reduced sensorium, cardiac arrest

2 cardiac arrest patients died
i performed CPR on them
rasa macam nak luruh jantung sebab heart rate menjulang naik

i also gedik2 buat triage-ing
gagaga~~

these were taken during HTD last weekend

were trying to convince them to try air khatira
and we did!
the next day, the bought air khatira again

what will happen if i give up?

i am so not in the mood these few days
and i am not bothered with what is happening around me

i lose myself...again
and i don't know for how long i will be like i am now

my soul is empty
i miss my space
and i miss lonesome

just let me be here
i beg no words or gestures

just let me be...

i am now posted at emergency department
so far, not many interesting cases i have seen (or is it because i always come late to A&E? :P)

yesterday, i saw one case of motor vehicle accident
i felt great because i got to see blood
real blood man..
hahahaha
damn crazy girl

there's nothing else i can say
duduk diam2 jela
.............................................................

akhirnya kami tutup gerai
awal pulak tu
pukul 3 dah bungkus
x larat nak tunggu lagi lagipun esok start kelas
bosannya.....

mujur juga berkemas awal sebab x lama lepas habis kemas, hujan pun turun dengan lebat beserta ribut yang hampir menumbangkan gerai

sampai bilik terus tidur
bangun2 je, sapu dan mop lantai
rasa bersepah pulak bilik (padahal hari2 memang bersepah pun)

makcik gerai sebelah sedih bila tengok kami kemas awal
xde kawan agaknya
hehehe

kami dapat air cincau free sebekas sebab bagi air gula free kat diorang
hahahaha

hari ni hari pertama hari terbuka desa ataupun HTD
aku dan kawan2 berpakat nak buka gerai
jadinya, hari ini dalam sejarah la kiranya kan

masing2 ada kelas sampai petang
jadi, kami set up gerai lambat
semua orang tanya kenapa lambat buka
dah, nak buat macam mana kan....

apa yang kami jual?
air khatira, bandung cincau, pancake, waffle, sweet corn and hash brown
belum tau lagi untung atau tidak
tak larat la nak kira semua tu sekarang ni....

i woke up from sleep at 2.30am
purposely slept early because i felt like staying up
bullshit!

now. now. i should be doing my work but i read blogs instead
uurghhhh!!!

i have plan for this weekend
mommy also has something for me
let's pray that i will get that 'thing' as earliest possible
amin....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to whoever celebrate their birthdays this month
may God bless you always
you know i love you all :)

to the laid back guy, CONGRATULATIONS on your convocation
we both owe each other, aight?
:D



and people,
HAVE A GOOD DAY AHEAD~~

baru sahaja selesai membuat waffle
1st time buat, adunan jadi sangat kenyal
-->tak berapa sedap

adunan kedua, sudah menjadi
cumanya tak sanggup nak tunggu lebih 5 minit untuk waffle tu masak
banyak keping kami makan
hehe

hujung minggu ni akan ada lagi~

raya tahun ni agak sibuk
raya pertama dah berangkat ke klang
sampai je petang tu, terus ke sabak bernam
dah 4 tahun rasanya x raya kat sabak bernam
huhuhu~~