a journey of a starless night

serene. tranquil. peaceful.

i love tulips

aish...i forgot that i have a quiz to submit today
i slept early last night until 6.30am..lama x lama..huhu
woke up and suddenly i remember i haven't do the quiz yet and the letter to MDA!!!
o my gosh!!
i'm such a lazy brat :P
the letter can be done at haida's once i reach there tomorrow

budus punya ym
asal asyik on off je ni??
bongek sungguh
x paham tul

today is my second day of posting and both my patients didn't come
i've wasted my turn twice in a week!!
i'll be dead if this continues to happen to me
pity me...

my eyes were boggy this morning
i didn't sleep well last night and my brain did not functioning well
but i'm getting better throughout the day

i didn't realize this week passed so quickly
time is moving fast or are we getting slower?..

i know how it feels to lose someone you love so much
i lost mine too
but you have to be strong
there's no other way to make it
you can be strong
you are only 17
live your life
you still have your father who loves you, right?
i hope you are doing well and fine


aku lebih tenang
tiada lagi rasa marah
masih belum mahu mengaku kalah
cuma ingin melepas rasa yang terbuku di hati
maaf sekiranya ada hati yang kecewa
tidak terniat untuk melukakan
aku masih belum mahu mengalah

i can't focus
i can't think straight
i can't sleep
i feel dizzy
a bit disorientated
and rasa macam nak demam
i don't have paracetamol. took one tablet 3 days ago
aish..please don't sick
i'm going to kl this weekend
nak jalan jauh ni...

ish..aku penat la
dah2. dok sana jauh2
ada aku kesah?

tuan punya badan (akulah tu), sila senyap

i saw a girl drinking big gulp while at the departmental store yesterday
made me crave for big gulp too
went to 7-Eleven after class this afternoon and bought 16oz big gulp for myself

went to pick up my laundry
the charge-->RM 22.50
i didn't know the charge has increased

i'm hypocrite
i'm a liar
i'm a pretender
i'm selfish
i'm vengeful
i'm ruthless
i'm all the above

i need console
i need understanding

i don't tell
i don't share
i don't even care

An anniversary (from the Latin anniversarius, from the words for year and to turn, meaning (re)turning yearly; known in English since c. 1230) is a day that commemorates and/or celebrates a past event that occurred on the same day of the year as the initial event. For example, the first event is the initial occurrence or, if planned, the inaugural of the event. One year later would be the first anniversary of that event. The word was first used for Catholic feasts to commemorate saints.

(taken from wikipedia)

this tears
it falls
over and over again

this heart crushes
feels breathless

these hands tremble
feels numb


all in one
i always have this kind of feelings
should i explode?
should i share?
one thing for sure
i should shut up and get grip of myself

today, at 7.28pm, 10 years ago
my father had left us, forever
he passed away leaving us behind in this world
AYAH, kakak rindu ayah sangat2....

happy 22nd birthday to FARHA basri and AIN roslan
may both of u have the prosperous year ahead
may your lives are blessed till the end
i love you, girls :)

he forgot about today...

terasa sayu dalam kebingitan
keliru untuk membuat keputusan
jiwa bagaikan kosong
lontaran kata bagaikan tak bermakna
saat itu terasa ingin mengundurkan diri
dari persada dunia penuh noda
jujur ku katakan
aku tak cocok berada di tempat ini
hatiku gusar
bicaraku tak menentu
langkahku pincang
kawan itu siapa?
teman itu yang bagaimana?
aku tidak punya semua itu
tolong aku, kuatkan semangatku
aku masih ingin teguh berdiri
aku bukan semalu
yang menguncup tatkala disentuh
aku ingin terbang bebas
melihat seluruh isi alam
merasa kemanisan hidup dalam pelukan sayapku

you hugged me tight
not wanting to let me go
every time i lay upon you

you brushed my cheeks
not wanting to let me cry again
every time i lay upon you

you whispered into my ears
not wanting to sever the fragile heart
every time i lay upon you

you stroked my hair
not wanting to let it covers my face
every time i lay upon you

for most of the reasons
you just wanted me to be there for you
hoping i will always be there
to cherish and to create beautiful memories together

she is the KEY :)

while waiting for KEY :P

below are the pictures from our jamuan raya

the usherettes

she was the mastermind of the game we had that night :D

3 dara pingitan

the whole bunch of us. lek tuan cacat :P

we didn't capture many pictures...
anak dara duduk di tangga

the kemas2 session

good morning :)
i woke up early today
made a cup of nescafe with mexican bun
i have a date today
she's a youthsayer too
KEY....i'm meeting you :)
hope i can get along with her
if we can in the forum, why not in the real life, right?
mmmm.....she asked me to accompany her to her brother's friend's wedding in pengkalan chepa
she will fetch me at my hostel and gossiping all the way

oh, by the way
i like the poem below this post

dalam hati sepi
jiwa terasa kosong
izinkan bibir melakar kata indah

bulan itu sedang berbicara
kala bumi diselaputi kegelapan

angin itu membawa kerinduan
kala bumi diselimuti awanan

ombak itu meraih perhatian
kala bumi disimbah cahaya mentari

jangan pergi saat diri masih perlu
jangan pergi saat diri masih sendiri
jangan pergi saat diri masih belum kuat

aku tidak seperti karang di lautan
yang teguh berdiri melawan alunan ombak

aku tidak seperti pohon kayu itu
yang teguh berdiri melawan deru angin kencang

aku hanya insan biasa
yang masih ingin kasih dan sayang

aku hanya insan biasa
yang masih ingin perhatian

aku hanya insan biasa
yang masih ingin menyimpan memori

i'm such a cry baby
yes, i admit that
i cry easily because i have a sensitive heart
that is why i don't want to be a doctor
i pray to ALLAH hoping that my beloved family, friends either near or distant are in the pink of health, always..
i love you all. maybe i don't show it but you have to know that i love you

he was and still very friendly. that's why i love him. he's so adorable

he loved 'jumping'

he's walking away from me :(

and now he's coming back to me :)

lost into technology :P

adam and tia
they are cousins
i am their auntie

mak long sayang tia :)

irfan and tia
they are brother and sister

tia with 2 mak longs

irfan in the buaian

they were pretending they are 'good' friends

tia rode adam's bike
adam was on tia's lorry
they were fighting after that

when the sun sets
the moon appears
accompanied by the shining stars
i take a walk
by the beach
the breeze caressing my cheeks
the musical sound of the wave
makes me lost into the night
alone i am
to discover the feeling
fiery as red
calming as blue
pure as white
mystery as black
i search for the answer
i long for the truth
the sun rises
brings new hope
if only i have the strength
to continue my journey
if only i have the courage
to face a new episode
if only....

i had a very long sleep yesterday
from 8.30pm till 8.00am this morning
so tired and it was raining
woke up early because we have lecture this morning by guest lecturer from indonesia
the deputy dean made it compulsory for all year 4 and year 5 students
it's holiday but we have class
simpati la sikit

the masters of ceremony for today's students scientific conference

sitting on the chair in the seminar room after the event finished. my feet were killing me

i wore this pair the whole day.sakitnya kaki...

camwhoring during presentation. i didn't understand most of the topics :P

i brought this to the conference. hehe

this was my costume for jamuan raya last week

adila the cousin

i was trying to make my eyes looked bigger. i have a pair of sleepy eyes. so don't blame me if i sleep in the class :P

aiman the cousin. he's naughty

this morning my school will be having a students scientific conference
i'm the emcee for opening and closing ceremony together with yan
i don't have kebaya so i'm wearing my baju raya
it's blue black
i don't have any make up and i don't know how to put it on my face
so i will be the emcee with plain face
i hope my tongue doesn't twist during the event
good luck to me

beauty is subjective
beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder
beauty captures the heart of people who sees it

i am not a pretty girl
neither am i ugly

when people say thin is pretty
i would say plump is cute

when people say fair is pretty
i would say tan is gorgeous

when people say straight hair is pretty
i would say curly hair is sexy

because i am all the above
and i do feel good
and yes i am good
i don't whine
i don't complaint
i am me

by agnes monica
gwe suka banget :)

Setiap tetes air mataku
Telah kuberikan untuk kisahku
Mengerti tapi tak dimengerti
Cintaku tlah di ujung jalan

Setiap kata dari bibirku
Kadang tak sama dalam hatiku
Tersenyum dalam hati menangis
Cintaku tlah di ujung jalan

Aku sangat mengenalmu
Aku juga cintaimu..
Tapi kau tak pernah ada pengertian
Ku senang,ku sedih
Kau tak mau tahu

Aku sangat mengenalmu
Dulu kau tak begitu
Kau bintang di hatiku
Jadilah yang kumau
Ku senang,ku sedih
Kau ada denganku

Ku mengerti kau apa adanya
Begitupun yang kumau darimu
Kau tahu rasanya diabaikan
Cintaku telah di ujung jalan

berat kaki melangkah
meniti denai tak berpenghujung
sesah gelisah
kerana bersendirian

fikiran berputar
melihat dunia yang entah apa jadinya nanti
sesah gelisah
kerana bersendirian

pandangan kelabu
tidak nampak arah
sesah gelisah
kerana bersendirian

biar sendiri
asalkan tahu jalan pulang

biar sendiri
asalkan teguh pegangan

(ini adalah karangan yang paling tidak menarik yang pernah terhasil.sekian, terima kasih :P)

i'm trying to describe about myself here
so, please bear with it

1. i am a lazy person
2. i am a night person
3. i am a last minute person
4. i can be very loud at some time and very timid at another time
5. i have loud voice
6. i eat a lot (just look at my size *straight face* )
7. i like coffee
8. i can do multitasking but it depends on my mood
9. i sleep a lot
10. i am stingy
11. i am hypocrite
12. i am secretive
13. i love my handwriting
14. i am fussy most of the time but not all the time
15. i prefer using plain paper rather than test pad
16. i am very particular about lines. they must be straight. no jagged lines allowed
17. i've never been to karaoke (sila jangan gelak)
18. i love mathematics and physics
19. i do my work at a very slow pace
20. i am not a good driver
21. i talk fast
22. i don't like people who point their fingers to other people when they don't want to do something
23. i admire a strong willed person (ehem2 kepada TPK :P)
24. i don't really like animals
25. i love white, red, black and purple
26. i sleep in the class (who doesn't?)
27. i spend a lot
28. i like beaches and waterfalls
29. i write with black pen unless none available
30. i don't like waiting

above are 30 somehow true facts about me. will tell you more later
padan muka :P

there's one guy who keeps on calling me to ask me out
i've given him various excuses including the lamest one but he acted like he knew nothing
rimas la aku

happy 24th birthday to big bro SUFFIAN
happy 22nd birthday to IZZATI

may ALLAH bless both of you always
may there's always a penny or two in your pocket
may there's always laughter to fill up your days
may there's always enough food to fill your stomach
may there's always hope for you to hold onto
may there's always love everywhere in the world for you

happy birthday :)

it's raining heavily
being an emo girl
i love this kind of weather especially at night
it represents me somehow
i wish i could be more outgoing instead of in control

These are from a Book called 'Disorder in the American Courts',
and actually are things documented that people said in court,
word for word, taken down and now published by Court Reporters
who had the torment of staying calm while these exchanges were actually taking place.

ATTORNEY: Are you sexually active?
WITNESS: No, I just lie there.

ATTORNEY: What gear were you in at the moment of the impact?
WITNESS: Gucci sweats and Reeboks.

ATTORNEY: This myasthenia gravis, does it affect your memory at all?
ATTORNEY: And in what ways does it affect your memory?
WITNESS: I forget.
ATTORNEY: You forget? Can you give us an example of something you forgot?

ATTORNEY: Susan, what was the first thing your husband said to you that morning?
WITNESS: He said, "Where am I, Cathy?"
ATTORNEY: And why did that upset you?
WITNESS: My name is Susan!

ATTORNEY: Do you know if your daughter has ever been involved in voodoo?
WITNESS: We both do.
WITNESS: Yes, voodoo.

ATTORNEY: Now doctor, isn't it true that when a person dies in his sleep,
he doesn't know about it until the next morning?
WITNESS: Did you actually pass the bar exam?

ATTORNEY: The youngest son, the twenty-year- old, how old is he?
WITNESS: Uh, he's twenty?

ATTORNEY: Were you present when your picture was taken?
WITNESS: Are you shittin' me?

ATTORNEY: So the date of conception (of the baby) was August 8th?
ATTORNEY: And what were you doing at that time?
WITNESS: Uh.... I was getting laid!

ATTORNEY: She had three children, right?
ATTORNEY: How many were boys?
ATTORNEY: Were there any girls?
WITNESS: Are you shittin' me? Your Honor, I think I need a different attorney.
Can I get a new attorney?

ATTORNEY: How was your first marriage terminated?
WITNESS: By death.
ATTORNEY: And by whose death was it terminated?
WITNESS: Now whose death do you suppose terminated it?

ATTORNEY: Can you describe the individual?
WITNESS: He was about medium height and had a beard.
ATTORNEY: Was this a male or a female?

ATTORNEY: Is your appearance here this morning pursuant to a deposition notice
which I sent to your attorney?
WITNESS: No, this is how I dress when I go to work.

ATTORNEY: Doctor, how many of your autopsies have you performed on dead people?
WITNESS: All my autopsies are performed on dead people.
Would you like to rephrase that?

ATTORNEY: ALL your responses MUST be oral, OK? What school did you go to?

ATTORNEY: Do you recall the time that you examined the body?
WITNESS: The autopsy started around 8:30 p.m.
ATTORNEY: And Mr. Denton was dead at the time?
WITNESS: No, he was sitting on the table wondering why I was doing an autopsy on him!

ATTORNEY : Are you qualified to give a urine sample?
WITNESS: Huh .... are you qualified to ask that question?

ATTORNEY: Doctor, before you performed the autopsy, did you check for a pulse?
ATTORNEY: Did you check for blood pressure?
ATTORNEY: Did you check for breathing?
ATTORNEY: So, then it is possible that the patient was alive when you began the autopsy?
ATTORNEY: How can you be so sure, Doctor?
WITNESS: Because his brain was sitting on my desk in a jar.
ATTORNEY: I see, but could the patient have still been alive, nevertheless?
WITNESS: Yes, it is possible that he could have been alive and practicing law

The best poem of 2006
This poem was nominated by UN as the best poem of 2006, Written by an African Kid

When I born, I black
When I grow up, I black
When I go in Sun, I black
When I scared, I black
When I sick, I black
And when I die, I still black

And you white fellow
When you born, you pink
When you grow up, you white
When you go in sun, you red
When you cold, you blue
When you scared, you yellow
When you sick, you green
And when you die, you grey

And you calling me colored?

taken from :

next week the true session will be started
am i confident enough to do this?
am i good enough to finish this?
o my...i pray to Allah that everything goes smooth sailing
speaking of sailing, i wonder when will i get the chance to go cruising
anybody here wants to treat me??
i wish i have a bank account loaded with money
but the reality is ugly :P
thank to farie for accepting my invite to youthsays
and we need more youths to make Malaysia a better place
peace <3

the birthday girl :)

with ex roommie

the double F's

below are the photos of the same 'mood' :P

tried many times to upload more photos
turned out 'could not be retrieved'

i have to prepare the MC script for students scientific conference which will be held this thursday
the lecturer in charge wants to see it tomorrow
i don't have any idea on how to do the introductory. tried to search for the event from the internet but turned out useless
what am i gonna do???

lovey dovey session :P

fireworks time!!!

glued to the wall shoot :D

the ex roommates~~

i have no words to describe our night
let the picture speaks on my behalf
i was really tired that night but managed to have fun with them
it was almost 2am in the morning and it was raining heavily when we finished our photoshoot
i really love the 'glued to the wall' shoot
there was also jumping photos but i didn't post them here
*malu* :P
part 2 will be uploaded later

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