a journey of a starless night

i hate this kind of feeling
a feeling where you can not describe or express
it builds up inside me and swells to occupy the empty heart
the time when i almost feel like giving up and have nobody to share
the reflections can never be true
the sunlight can never bring back the happiness
which has lost in the darkness
i curled up on my bed
alone
to comfort myself and to erase the pain
i weep when nothing can be done
i want to be free
i want to embrace the smiles and laughter
this feeling is unbearable
the words can not be put into sentence
the thoughts have gone wild
i scream but no one hears it
the chest tightens
the heart crashes
the vision blurs
the tears dry
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